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I'm losing my focus - this is getting scary. 

It's probably a combination of burning out and just being overwhelmed with work - but whatever it is, I: 

i) need a break, severely, and 

ii) cannot afford to let my grades drop, not now. 

Every day has now morphed into a perpetual daze of picking up the pieces, and rushing work before deadlines; completing tasks for the sake of completion, joining clubs for the sake of achievement. I feel I no longer have control of what I'm doing, what I want to do, and how I can do it. In other words, I'm losing my autonomy, and that, is frightening. After that, I'll lose my motivation, and from there, a downward spiral. This sounds like a post of myself wallowing in apathy, but I hope it isn't. I do wish to get out of this mess, I'm just unsure of how to. I'll call it overworked. 

Anyhow, life goes on - and we'll make it through. I hope the rest of y'all will have a gorgeous week. :) 

Cheers!