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I am gonna bury myself in a little hole and hide in a cave for the next three weeks, and when I come back, this will be my new blogging home!

Here's wishing me (and you) all the best!

011

I've been meaning to blog ...

X Factor will always be my favourite. :)

010

"Mr. President? My name is Khan, and I'm not a terrorist".

Today, while buying food for lunch, I witnessed this mother (I think) shout at her child, not more than one year old, to drink.

"Drink!"

"DRINK LA!"

I was just caught in shock, like literally. It soon turned into anger, but I had no right. I was just like, really? Really?! I swear I'd never do that. You could really see the resentment in her eyes, and I think she almost caught mine. So I ran away before she had the chance to throw the glass at me.

I really shouldn't be here, and I promised Tricia not to, but. (So Tricia, if you're reading this - sorry!)

By the way, I think My Name is Khan is amazing, you all should watch it, but bring tons of tissue. And watch "Four Lions" if you dare - four people will blow themselves up, but none in the name of suicide bombing. It's really rather sad. Black humour.

"It's okay to fail".

Cheers!

009

Today has been one of those days I found myself feeling like there's no purpose in living, completely none. It was honestly a struggle to make it through today, to accept the fact that I'm living on Planet Earth - and to remember that Planet Earth is, indeed amazing.

"There is always hope".

Cheers to a good 10 years.

"Till the Sun and planets disappear,

I could stay in your arms all year.

Even if that means infinity through,

if being productive is being with you,

Then baby I don't want to waste another day"

- Waste Another Day, Brooke Fraser

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Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be as happy, content and immensely filled with joy as I once used to be, whether I'll ever be free from the clutches the insatiable nature of humans. I wonder where my optimism went, why I can longer be grateful for all that I have, why I always want more, even though I already have so much, and I wonder if I'll ever cut it as a photographer/musician, even if I don't make it big.

On other days, I wish to see the world in all it's majesty. It's an amazing planet we have here. From people to nature, "survival of the fittest" to care and compassion; social responsibility, to the most ugly side of humans. A world of extremes; they combine to make the most dynamic, most explosive, and most beautiful place to be on.

But on days like this, I sit back with an amazing soundtrack, wondering how 7 billion people can coexist in (general) harmony, how this world can be so beautiful yet ugly at the same time, and whether life is worth living. Then I remember, I've never really lost this optimism, it's innate, it's in here, somewhere, even if I can't find it right now.

41 days to freedom.

It's gonna be so worth it.

(stay inspired ~)

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As I'm waiting for Glee to load:

i. It's scary how it's already October 1st, and we're left with so little time that keeps ticking away, and that we probably haven't studied enough, and we're going to fight with time to complete everything we should, but the irony is that we had all the time in the world, and we will have all the time in the world.

ii. At 16, everything's a mess, it's fuzzy, and I suppose it always will be - the entire world is too complicated for comprehension, and as much as I try not to demystify it, I can't. It gets extremely irritating when everything you believe in, you value, you try so hard to fight for, gets challenged. Soon, you're left with no choice but to accept these lies as the only truth. But as members of society, what else can we do?