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I have not been here in a long, long time. 

I suppose it's been a combination of busy, preoccupied with what's happening in real, not internet life, and lost in thought. Anyhow, I always think a little time off from the internet can't be a bad thing. 

So school's almost out, I have one last half-day left tomorrow, before a five and a half week break. Honestly, who does that? 5 1/2 weeks? In this time, much and not much has happened all at the same time. 

I'm longing for so much more, but also am the most fortunate kid on the entire planet at the same time. I don't really know how that works out, but my God is amazing - and I need to remember that. 

He wants me. He doesn't want what I can offer as much as He wants me. To talk to Him, converse with Him and be with Him. Everything else is secondary, but I've been comfortable too long and He has been pushing me out of my comfort zone. 

So change is coming, and I'm pretty darn excited (and apprehensive, at the same time).