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I am the woman caught in adultery.

Jesus returned to the Mount of Olives, but early the next morning he was back again at the Temple. A crowd soon gathered, and he sat down and taught them. As he was speaking, the teachers of religious law and the Pharisees brought a woman who had been caught in the act of adultery. They put her in front of the crowd. “Teacher,” they said to Jesus, “this woman was caught in the act of adultery. The law of Moses says to stone her. What do you say?” They were trying to trap him into saying something they could use against him, but Jesus stooped down and wrote in the dust with his finger. They kept demanding an answer, so he stood up again and said, “All right, but let the one who has never sinned throw the first stone!” Then he stooped down again and wrote in the dust. When the accusers heard this, they slipped away one by one, beginning with the oldest, until only Jesus was left in the middle of the crowd with the woman. Then Jesus stood up again and said to the woman, “Where are your accusers? Didn’t even one of them condemn you?” “No, Lord,” she said.

And Jesus said, “Neither do I. Go and sin no more.” (John 8:1-11 NLT)

The woman is I.

The Pharisees would have if they could, but my Saviour could, but he would not.

That is the immense love of Jesus, and boy, it doesn't stop there. On behalf of every believer, myself included, who has ever portrayed Jesus as anything less than full on love, I apologise.

He could, but he would not.

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Back,

and I've deactivated Facebook and Twitter for about a week + now so I feel this is the only appropriate place to say this:

I need a to-do list.

Being in transition is quite fun, really - if not immensely tiring.

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I am at changi airport terminal 1 with a good friend of mine to meet a good friend of ours in Sabah, Malaysia.

I funded the trip myself with an exception of a little bit of money my mum gave to me to spend, by working at a job I really love and tutoring a boy I really like to teach.

I sit here in extreme gratitude for this is a lifestyle I would really like to live, and to think at 18 I am getting to live it already is just blows my mind. I started travelling semi independently at 16, and less so now.

I'll be heading to the UK to study at the end of the year for 4 years, and ideally, after that, I'd love to start my own business and keep on travelling while building my Saviour's kingdom.

There's a lot on my mind and I'm so immensely blessed I find it hard to take in.

I'll be boarding now, so I'll catch you when I'm back.

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I am realising, with a greater revelation each day, that I need Jesus.

I need Him with a great desperation, with every beat of my heart, every fibre of my being. 

and I'm not exaggerating.

In fact, it's probably an understatement. 

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Sometimes you gotta know how to make yourself happy.

Sometimes it hurts (regardless of a lot or a little, pain is still pain) - so you cry a little, let the tears run. Then you take a deep breath, and make yourself happy. 

Whether it's giving yourself a reason to keep smiling, buying yourself an ice chai latte, screaming to a friend, or talking to Jesus - make yourself happy, and life moves on. 

I think this is how life works: more people will get rejected than accepted, more people will fail than succeed, more people will cry than laugh. But at the end of the day, we all make it. We will make it. We will do something before our time is up, we will make a difference. And I don't think it'll be easy, but it will happen.

The past 4 months have passed in such a whirl. Sometimes I slow down and stop and start to think about what I've been doing, and I can't say I've been doing very much at all. 5 more months left and it's university, and I'm so excited, and there are a terrible number of 'ands' in this sentence. 

I have decided D is my favourite chord and A is my least favourite, which is a pity because they're in the same family of chords.