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So this is what it feels like to do well. I went through 3 major exams in this ghastly education system, and 2 left me wrecked. I'm still riding on a high, - not the arrogant type, I hope, and it honestly feels good to, in this order: be motivated, work hard at something, and do well at it. His word says I am the head and not the tail, and indeed His word is true. 

On another note, I s'ppose it's not really fair to God to say "God is good" only when you do well. I know He's always good, always always - and I guess sometimes I just use it as a filler because I've got nothing else to say. I genuinely mean it when I thank God for my grades because as I said, I can't, but He sure can, but it's almost too misrepresentative of who my God is - because my God's goodness is independent of the grades I get, the school I go to and the career I end up having. It's intrinsic, not consequential, and the fact I do well is because of His intrinsic goodness. He isn't good when I do well, it is because He is good I do well. 

(2):

I've always believed love is a choice - and attraction, or 'like', is not as much a choice. So I'm not going to use falling in love, I'm going to use falling for. It's a funny thing falling for someone at the age of 18. It's very different than falling for someone at age 14, but then again, that's not fair - it's a different person, me and him(s). For one, I'm a little more knowledgable of my own heart and my own mind - it becomes a little bit more than just that thrill, and a little less of the taking, but more of the giving and the working at it and the growing in love bit. 

Also - but this hasn't changed, I know a little bit more about how Christ is truly the cornerstone and should be the centre of any relationship. 

(3):

I can't remember the third point. I had it in my head as I was walking back from the driving school to the MRT. It was good going back to school today, to see we made the teachers so proud - half of our chemistry class getting 7s and 1/4th of my economics class (considering there was only 10/75 students with 7s - so 4 from us), and 4 in my english class. 

God is good. This is unmerited favour - and this is the year of the key of david. Blessed beyond belief.